when things fall apart…

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Recently, after going through the next round of ups and downs of chemotherapy, I returned to reading “When things fall apart” by Pema Chodron. Here are 2 quotes that spoke to me:

“We think that the point is to pass the test or overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don’t really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then they come together again and fall apart again. It’s just like that. The healing comes from letting there be room for all of this to happen: room for grief, for relief, for misery, for joy.”

And this one, which also includes “fresh”, the theme of the current photo challenge and of yesterday’s post:

“To be fully alive, fully human, and completely awake is to be continually thrown out of the nest. To live fully is to be always in no-man’s-land, to experience each moment as completely new and fresh”

The flowers in the photo above, they are from the garden here. The photo is from last Saturday, the day after chemo. Sunday was overcast and grey, but today it’s sunny again. I think of going for a drive, to go for a walk in a different, new place: somewhere fresh. And while typing this, the news came up that a German airplane crashed in the French Alps. Such terrible news. So many lives.

And the world, these days: it feels like everything is happening at once. It’s good it’s yoga this evening, and that the Paracetamol seems to keep the odd wandering pain/nerve impulses from the chemo at bay.

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3 thoughts on “when things fall apart…

  1. Glad you left a note “on my fence”.
    I just found and look forward to following both your blogs (via this one, as I don’t see how to follow directly your Blogger posts).
    Best wishes!

  2. When I read this post’s title I thought of my book (and audio) by Pema Chodron . . . and then I read your reference to her—yes! Isn’t she great!? I want to read and listen again! Sigh . . . always relevant, because in this world things keep falling apart.

    The “thrown out of the nest” quote is so useful to me right now. In fact, I’m even going to print it out—to reflect on it this week. Thanks again!

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