the sky. and flowers. and the sky…


“What subject keeps you coming back? This week, show us your muse.”

The photo unites two of my longterm muses: the sky. And flowers. And the sky. And flowers. And the sky…

And a quote:

“For too many centuries women have been being muses to artists. I wanted to be the muse, I wanted to be the wife of the artist, but I was really trying to avoid the final issue — that I had to do the job myself.” ― Anaïs Nin


Here’s the stream of “Muse” photos + the call: photo challenge “Muse”

Cancer myths debunked


Thanks, Cancer Research UK, for putting this science blog post together:
Don’t believe the hype – 10 persistent cancer myths debunked

It’s hard enough to go through cancer and its difficult treatments, through weeks of chemotherapy and radiation. It’s really not helping to be confronted with myths along the way, either by people who try to “help you” by telling you that chemotherapy is pointless and dangerous and just a huge money making conspiracy, and you really should switch to their better and safer natural treatment (which they are happy to sell to you..), or by friends who forward links to “new” cures, trying to help.

The one thing that left me really speechless a couple of times is the “big conspiracy theory”: that there is a miracle cancer cure… but Big Pharma are suppressing it” – if anyone goes through cancer, and see the demanding work the doctors and nurses in this sector do, supporting and helping cancer patients through treatments that are difficult, working all those long hours to help, either in hospitals or in labs: it’s just outrageous to state that they are all just doing it for the money, while willingly sacrificing lives, and wouldn’t care about patients. Thanks to the people at Cancer Research to putting this into words:

“To suggest that we are – collectively and individually – hiding ‘the cure’ is not only absurd, it’s offensive to the global community of dedicated scientists, to the staff and supporters of cancer research organisations such as Cancer Research UK and, most importantly, to cancer patients and their families.”

Previous blog posts from my journey through cancerland:
– Going through radiation, or: emotions vs. logic, ghosts, that parallel world, and a hammock

“Deported”, chemo dreams, and a life lesson in a bubble

i n t u i t i o n, or: my first art journal page


After visiting the art journal pages of fellow bloggers, and being especially touched by one which lead back to a tale about intuition and finding ones way through the difficult maze that is our life sometimes, i now gave it a try and put an art journal page together myself. Really enjoyed the process, and the chance connections and themes that developed into this collage.

The tale that sparked this step is “Vasilisa” – it’s a tale I recently read, about a girl who was sent into the woods by her stepmother and stepsisters, who hope she will get lost, and tell her that she needs to find new fire for their hearth that gone cold. But the forest / the time of dark teaches the girl how to connect and trust her intuition, and find the place of the old witch who lives there – for whom she works then, in exchange for the fire. And when she returns, she carries the fire, and isn’t a girl anymore, but a woman with inner knowing.

I read the tale and its interpretation in the book “Women who run with Wolves”. One thing I hadn’t understoond until now: that for interpretation, all elements in a fairy tale can be seen as general archetypes (the good and bad witches, the animals and their roles, the jealous stepsisters… ). But that they also can be seen as parts of your own self / psyche.

Which gives the stories and images a very different touch: its ourselves that make us small and act girly-like, or that make us reach for status symbols to show off and impress others who we are jealous of. And it is ourselves who have that old wise wisdom inside of us, the intution. And it is up to us – it is our freedom – to pick our way and to move towards towards the intuitive parts of our self, give them more space. So fascinating.

Some links:
The wiki-version of the tale: Vasilisa the Beautiful
art journal blog post in wordpress: #art-journal, #artjournal …
… which lead to this journal linkup: Get messy art journaling

Freedom / Freiheit


Freedom – it’s one of the words with so many layers, and after writing it down for an exercise, my mind started to come up with words that relate to it from word family, both in English and in German (my mother language).

Freedom, it’s “Freiheit” in German – and changing one letter, you get from “Freiheit” to “Freizeit”: from freedom to free time. All this freedom we have today, to do things, go places, learn and express. There is another beautiful word connected to “frei”: “freigiebig” – generous.

More interesting relations, in German, Friday is “Freitag”. but it isn’t free, it relates to the Nordic Goddess Freya (a powerful figure who is associated with love, sexuality, beauty, fertility, gold, war, and death)

Also, inside the word “frei”, there is “ei” – an egg. Which in that context, for me relates to the idea that to be free, you need to make the effort to break your comfortable and protective eggshell – which protects you, but also keeps you inside of it.

solstice + day #250


today: solstice
today: overcast with some sun
today: swinging in a hammock
today: day #250 of therapy + treatments
today: reading about a long-distance hike
today: creating this “roy g biv” – collage with all colors of the rainbow (Red. Orange. Yellow. Green. Blue. Indigo. Violet.)
today: sunday
today: the first 5 days of radiation completed
today: 31 days of radiation ahead…

…and then it’s done. just 31 more days.
well, and then the after-treatment checks and a cure stay. but basically, in 31 days, i will reach my personal solstice: after that, the days will get easier with each day.

And a sun quote:

“The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.
– Christopher McCandless


the photo collage is inspired by the current “rainbow” photo call. here’s the stream of “roy-g-biv” photos + the call: photo challenge “roy-g-biv”

…just for today

flower mandala

The day lilies are in bloom right now. They fascinate me with their strong colors, and all those intricate petals blooming just for one day.

I picked one of their petals, and also one of the rose petals that are in bloom, and now tried a digital flower mandala with them, as a memory that remains and carries their vibe.

And a quote:

“Just for today I will try to live through this day only, and not tackle all my problems at once…”

+ interesting, when I looked for the origin of that quote, I arrived here: quote investigator – it has a whole story about it, which leads back to 1880 and to lines like:

“Let me be kind in word and deed, Just for to-day.”